I feel like a traitor

Ok- so I have not posted on Journal space for a long time. Life took over and I just haven't had the energy or time. However, I was a member for four or five years. So when I was ready to go back, it was gone. Poof. Just liek that everything gone. I feel like I don't have the right to complain or feel any sense of loss since I had abandoned Journalspace not the other way around. However, I do. This will be my ne wplace- at least for now. Baby is crying- so I have to run.