Still in my PJ's...

It seems these days I rarely get out of my PJ's before 4 PM. Some days I don't even get to brush my teeth before noon. I had forgotten how life-consuming it was to have a newborn. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade being a new mommy for the world. But it was quite a radical change to my life the moment she was born. When I get a chance, I will have to tell that story.

I have decided that I am not going to go back to teaching. I left my options open, and I still have some sick time, but once it is gone I think I will have to give my notice. I am going to really miss the kids and some of my colleagues. It is bittersweet in a way. I still go to the school every day to take my son. I still see some of the kids after hours at various things. But now I feel like an outsider. I am no longer intimately tied to the school. It is good...awesome in fact...but it was also my life for the past ten years. I will miss it dearly.

Now I have other things to look forward to such as watching my baby girl grow (She's 8 weeks) and helping my son research college and driving. I can find myself again, although I am afraid I lost a lot of it over the last decade and will have to redefine who I am. I can devote more time to life in general and let go of the insanity that consumed my daily life. I can awake from the veil of complete and utter exhaustion that became me.

Sure being a new parent (again 15 years later!) is tiring, but it's cake compared to teaching and much more rewarding. And now I have to run because somebody is hungry and wants to eat NOW!!!!